We got to the doctors’ office that day, unsure of what would happen next. The doctor started with the semen analysis. She advised someone was an over achiever and was not having any issues. We jokingly said he had super sperm….but this also meant that I was the reason we could not sustain a pregnancy. The doctor pulled out my HSG scan pictures. The doctor began to explain my right fallopian tube was extremely damaged. She said it was not functioning properly. That is when I found out how our bodies truly function during a cycle. The doctor explained that my body was making the embryo, it was attaching to the uterine lining, but could not stick to the uterine lining long term. Since my right fallopian tube was damaged, the fluid was draining into my uterus. This prevented the embryo from staying stuck to the uterine lining. The doctor said if we were going to move forward with fertility treatments, I would need surgery. Never in a million years did I think I would need surgery. I had no clue what having surgery would even do for my fallopian tube. Was there a way to reverse the damage? Could they open the fallopian tube at the end to release fluid? I had so many questions. We were told we did not need to stop trying to conceive naturally, but we would need to schedule surgery if we wanted to pursue fertility treatments. We discussed it and after weighing our options, we decided to move forward with the surgery. I was advised I had to wait until my next cycle. Well when my next cycle came, it was confirmed we had early miscarriage #4. We were so devastated, but happy we were moving forward and going to have surgery. The doctor had already written out a fertility plan for after surgery, so if we decided to go that route we would already know where to start. The plan would be to do 1 round of IUI. I know most people do multiple rounds of IUI, but for our situation only 1 round is what was best. If that round of IUI did not work, we would begin the process for IVF. We found out our insurance covered IVF, but not IUI (odd since normally it is the opposite if insurance covers any of it at all). During all of this, I was also told I no longer had any cysts in my ovaries….what?!?! None! With all the negative outcomes and needing surgery, it was so great to hear I no longer had PCOS cysts. The hard work I put in during that year worked. Of course, with all of this said, I was bothered that I was the problem. I was causing us to not be able to have a baby. My husband continued to reassure me that we were in this together….it was neither of us that was an issue since we are a team. This made me feel so much better and he is nothing but supportive. I still have moments where it bothers me, but he continues to reassure me that it is us, we, team, and not just me.